What's recurring in my life...

What's recurring in my life is coming to an intersection where the weight of my work, projects, relationships, theology, worldview, and struggles just seem to collapse on me. And it's only then do I realize even more how helpless I am.

Often, this leads to the question of would I trade it all in for an easy & complacent life? No. On top of that though, I'm thankful that grace was indeed made irresistible. For I believe our flesh would always desire evil if not for grace. 

The Sovereign will of Him is not for us to know, nor necessary for Him to reveal. But how often do I think about His will...and living in it. Sometimes I ask myself am I thinking too much to where it becomes almost pondering in vain? And indeed, theology should only cause us to love Him more.

In the end, the privilege I've had and really what I continue to hang onto most is seeing His faithfulness throughout my life. Enough to where I have no other desire but to surrender it all to Him. To begin thinking about the weight of the trials & tribulations ahead though, and about how difficult life is, becomes that roller coaster ride. When we're reminded He is Sovereign (and when it becomes real to us) we find peace, when we start living in the flesh, the burden becomes heavy again.

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I think the last thing I'll say in this post is just how emotional it's been...seeing the damage caused by Armenian/Synergism worldviews. Seeings brothers & sisters around me growing up living in this environment of false doctrine and teachings. It's taken me a long time to be able to say that with confidence. And ultimately I realize it's because there is one truth - for the Bible cannot contradict itself or be separated in truths. Beneath theology & worldviews though is love. For knowledge makes arrogant, but love edifies. And I believe doctrinal beliefs are only a representation of biblical truths. To know what election, irresistible grace, etc. is is not necessary for salvation. But because many are separated in worldviews, and worldviews are so critical in shaping how one views God & life, there should be no fear in speaking truths. It is because we love those around us, we have the boldness to speak. Without a love for Him, we would never know how to love man.

Something I've felt God leading me to is helping those around me realize the need to surrender it all to Him. I find His Sovereignty has been so diluted and misunderstood by us that sometimes we don't even realize what Sovereignty means and is only a word we use because others around us are using it. That or we lessen His Sovereignty with the God we, as man, make Him to be or want Him to be. I pray, though, that I would just be faithful in everything opportunity He gives and that truth would be made known to all of us.

As John Piper would say, "He is most glorified in you when you are most satisfied with Him."

Brothers & Sisters, surrender yourselves to Him.

I pray we will not only remember the weight of our sins but also the weight of what the cross meant for us. That we would never cheapen Grace. And that we would only fall on our knees each time to think of how He could ever love us as He does.

Sanctus Real - Forgiven w/ Lyrics

  

What is Salvation? (In 2 Minutes) - Paul Washer

 

Comments

[Steven]

I really feel like God's especially blessed you with a gift of hungering for knowledge in Him. not sure how to explain it, but im glad that u rn't complacent with our current status in regards to knowing God. if that makes sense lol

[Daniel Kao]

Thanks man. I think what I feel most blessed in..is Him allowing me to realize how little I know... ultimately revealing how much I need Him. That's what I'm thankful for. That I would learn more and more to trust in Him instead of myself. And that is also what's comforting. To know that He is in control.

[Quentin Ruff]

[this is good] In my opinion, it is actual, I will take part in discussion. Together we can come to a right answer.